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Getting Back to The New-Old Me!


As I sit here at work right now (yes, I'm typing while on-the-clock because I'm always on the friggin' clock), I realized something... I realized just how boring I have become #BoringPersonAlert! Don't get me wrong! I often think about how my life is consumed with poopie diapers, request to buy slime supplies, pigtailing (daughter's hair), french braiding (son's hair), and "Hey babe, can you fix me..." requests!

But as I was tuned into a webinar for a leadership program I'm in at work, the question was posed, "What's your brand equity?" I've honestly been trying to build my website for the last three weeks (and by trying I mean that I've had the browser window open on my desktop at work for that amount of time, but not really committed too much energy to it- and I've certainly not done anything to it while at home even though EVERY SINGLE DAY that I've left work I've stated that I wasn't going to make something good happen for me!)

Ok... back to my internal thought that is so easily side tracked by my ADHD'isms! Like I was saying, I thought, what's my personal brand? And truthfully, at almost 33 years old, I still grapple with expressing what I'm good at! This is different than knowing what I'm good at, by the way! The difference is that when I express inwardly what it is that I'm dynamic at I'm like, "Yes JacQuaye! You are INDEED the bomb.com at that!" But then when I have to express to others what I'm good at, I stumble and find my fingers hesitant to type it or I'm short for words (which is usually not the case). So, why is this???

Ok.. the point of this mini-afternoon tangent is that I am so good at so much stuff! But I'm so overly consumed with my day-to-day; from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. it's all about work, work,work- maybe I'll take a lunch within that time frame, but more than likely not! And then from 5:01 pm when I leave work (which is really more like 6:15 p.m.) I'm in survival mode just to deal with the family when I get home! So no matter how motivated I was when I started the beginning of my day, I'm too drained to finish strong and when it all boils down, I didn't even accomplish anything for myself throughout the day! Just work, work, work and more work!

It's time for me to stop being so boring dangnabit! My thoughts always go back to how I lived in NYC on my own and commuted from Brooklyn to times square each day for work, interviewed greats like Della Reese, had Mike Tyson call me beautiful, danced in the club with Mike Epps, sat next to supermodel Iman backstage and stood shoulder-to-shoulder with Nick Cannon (sure he was taller than me, but you know what I mean)! And trust me, these are just a few of the random interactions I've had with a long list of A-Listers and celebrities... back when I was invincible! And never once did I get star struck because, to me, I was a star just like them!

The moral of this story is it's time to get back to me! Not the old me, but the new and improved me! Time to be as motivated as I was back then! Starting today. Starting now! I'm going to be that confident go-getter that I used to be and I encourage you to get back to the new-old you as well!

This is Quaye's Payne!


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